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About Me Member Mad Scientist Soy de California17/Male/Japan Recent Activity Deviant for 5 Months
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I Don't think you ready fo dis Jelly...

Fri Jul 31, 2009, 5:07 PM
  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Bootylicious
  • Reading: Jane Eyre (Squee)
  • Watching: Hetalia
  • Playing: Quinn (Mac Tetris)
  • Eating: Bread Pudding
  • Drinking: Rum
It's been a long week. I've given into conformity and will journal like other compatriots have. I have really a bad habit of brooding over things when I'm not mentally occupied otherwise. Sometimes it's either I'm thinking absolutely nothing and other times, I'm thinking so hard my ears are bleeding. Anywho, I realized, while being in deep contemplation as I washed mountains of dishes for this Cooking Day Camp I work at, that I'm emotionally unstable; yet I am perfectly comfortable with this. I was thinking about all the things I would like to change about myself haha, and I realized how pointless an exercise that would be. I feel like I'm in a lot of pain, very very often which makes sense I guess. I'm extremely confused. I also realized that after my father gave me a speech about how I'm going to be unsuccessful,, isolated and economically useless, if I don't nurture my body, mind and spirit equally, that I'm indifferent to whether or not people understand what brings me happiness. There's is schism in my head; I'm not sure whether to laugh at myself or just pity myself. But I abhor self-pity. So what I'll end up doing seems obvious. Sometimes that makes me happy. The fact that I am joyous even if I'm feeling all this unnecessary and inconsequential pain. I have this foolish hope that since people, for example like my father, can't fully comprehend the purest for of happiness I hold inside, it's unlikely they can take it away.

...Not that I'm saying that anyone would want to do such a thing.
I apologize for the disjointedness of thought. ^^; :confused:

Introspection = Epic Fail..:ashamed:...Gah...Summer Homework.:O_o:

School's in 2.5 weeks...Shiznits. X_X

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  • Current Residence: Endless Vortex of Kyoto
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  • Interests: Japan, Digital & Film Photography, BL Stuff, Goudima,
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  • Favourite game: Pokemon Stadium 2, Soul Calibur, Final Fantasy XII
  • Favourite gaming platform: Nintendo Wii, Nintendo DS, N64
  • Tools of the Trade: Intuition, GIMP, Transmission/uTorrent, Olympus iS-1, Sleep

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:iconmtw5216:
I'm guessing you're Vanessa's friend? =] Welcome to DA and thanks for watching.
:iconzettaidosu-kirei:
Oh Why yes I am. Thanks for the warm welcome. Btw, I hope its ok if I ask for your advice from time to time. :w00t:

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...Goudima-Fasuto: "What's the name of that park out there in the woods with those trees?" :blahblah:
*音楽わセイドウです* :floating:
:iconmtw5216:
Oh, of course. Though why you want my advice is beyond me. xD
:iconzettaidosu-kirei:
Your good digital photography of course ^^!

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...Goudima-Fasuto: "What's the name of that park out there in the woods with those trees?" :blahblah:
*音楽わセイドウです* :floating:
:iconmtw5216:
OHPSH. It's not that good.
I just like taking pictures.
:iconkuraudia:
Thanks for the watch :heart:

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:damphyr:クラウディア
:iconzettaidosu-kirei:
De Nada. Doo Itashimashite. ^^ I'm just so glad that I can watch your work! :eager: :#1:

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...Goudima-Fasuto: "What's the name of that park out there in the woods with those trees?" :blahblah:
*音楽わセイドウです* :floating:
:iconemoxjello:
WELCOME TO DEVART MY LOVE! :D


<3

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Minä pidän pavuista!!!

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:iconzettaidosu-kirei:
Thank you! Love <33333

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...Goudima-Fasuto: "What's the name of that park out there in the woods with those trees?" :blahblah:
*音楽わセイドウです* :floating:

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